Life Without You

I am not a poet,

Nor can I play with heavy words like you,

My pen isn’t my best friend but it’s an acquaintance I can rely upon when I pen my thoughts about you.

My thoughts of what we were,

How it used to be,

The innocent, naïve love blooming in us.

That touch of yours that made me shy,

The laughter we shared,

The countless nights spent texting each other of how we cared.

The divine love of ours, you used to say,

The “love you” you whispered in my ears when you first embraced,

Being encircled in your arms I found my world of happiness in the warmth of your body.

The warmth of your breath was what I felt on my neck,

The wetness of your lips on mine,

When I was all cuddled up by you.

The beautiful and blissful moments spent with you,

How can I forget, the pulling of myself close to you,

Locking your fingers in mine.

These are the memories, only memories that are left with me,

Gone are you so far away beyond my reach.

I stretch my arms trying to embrace you,

But all I get thin air and this emptiness around me,

I search your face in the crowd I stand in today, all alone and lost because I don’t see you.

I try to sniff my clothes trying to smell your scent,

Still persisting since I last hugged you.

Looking past my window, I see the road where you kissed me last,

Then it was a blissful thing,

But now it seems all so lonely.

Life seems so difficult, so pushing,

Aches in my heart are what all I have.

Night when the moon is full,

And moonlight lights my room,

Yet there’s darkness in my thoughts as I fell all alone.

Twisting and tossing on my bed, I try to get some sleep because I want to dream,

Dreams are my escape is all what I feel,

But the wetness of my eyes doesn’t let me sleep.

I hug my pillow tight, biting hard on its edge,

Just to hide,

Hide from my fears of leading a lonely life without you.

Everything seems to look in a flow,

Nature on its spree from one season to other, winter to spring.

But life for me has come to a standstill.

My words don’t rhyme nor are they in a flow.

But this is how I feel so different from before.

The pride in me when you were there, now all so diminished.

Because now it’s an unhappy soul,

The soul whose chords have been snatched away by destiny,

By the destiny that had given her life a year before.

I tried hard on my emotions but they seem to be so uncontrolled.

But this is how it is.

And will remain to be, my LIFE WITHOUT YOU.