LOSE, you not being here now

My mind boggles, when I see your portrait.

That how could the things just come to an end?

Yesterday it seemed to be all happy and merry to me.

And tonight I lay on my bed all so much in pain.

The inhealable pain it is.

It was just yesterday it seems, when you whispered in my ears,

The three divine word for me. “I love you”.

And tonight I lay on my bed, my eyes soaked with salty tears.

Even the salty tears taste better than the bitter.

The bitterness you showed to me.

My pillow all so soaked, the moisture and the puffiness under my eyes.

Don’t seem to turn your heart, is what amazes me.

I cried, I begged and fell on your foot.

But nothing seemed to make a difference to you, then and now.

Perhaps heart of yours that love me so turned into a stone.

It was just yesterday it seems, when we went on long strolls.

Hand in hand, fingers locked so tight.

But tonight it’s a night, when the moon is so bright.

But yet I walk all alone.

On the same roads sprinkled with the silver moonlight.

It was just yesterday it seems, when you knelt down to propose.

To stay besides me as a support, a matrimonial bond you wanted.

But tonight I try to imagine that ring on my finger.

But it’s all so blurred as my dreams got washed away.

By your ignorance, my never ending tears and the destiny’s blow.

I even know may be its not your entire fault.

May be this is how it was to be, but then I don’t accept it either.

Because I still long for the fewer, though fewer times they were.

The times spent with you, I long for you.

But know my body aches so much, harder are the breaths.

Hard is for my soul to break away every string of the bond.

The bond it formed with yours, it was so strong.

But tonight I struggle, still trying to mend the threads.

The slipping worn out threads of our connected souls.

The souls whose togetherness was not a coincidence but a connection, you always said.

I eventually look up to the sky, trying to question the All Mighty tonight.

Who brought you in my life an angel in disguise, I used to believe.

I ask him tonight, if love is so painful then why they call it to be your gift?

May be that’s why they call falling in love and not rising in love?

This is a fight with God, with you and with me because of my biggest LOSE.

The LOSE is you my love, not being here with me now anymore.